When certain individuals enter certain fields, they make a promise of sorts. Judges are sworn in, as are presidents. Lawyers must adhere to certain ethical standards, while doctors are required to take an oath as well-a Hippocratic one to be exact with the first words being "First do no harm." Perhaps this is an oath we should all live by, and I think at least most of us do. I don't think most of us go around maliciously wreaking havoc and meanness upon others. I mean some people are obviously more vicious than others, but usually only strike out if cornered. We all have moments of weakness where we say or do something we don't mean. In most situations a SINCERE, apology will do the trick. Though I'm sure it's not necessary to remind you, but Adam and Eve suffered that first weakness, and haven't the rest of us been suffering ever since? Though it might have been a lot worse had they not supplicated at least a bit to God. Well, anyway, we all screw up, and I am no exception to that list. My list of screw ups is well beyond the single or even double digits, but I've paid my penance and cried my tears, felt my anger and was almost crushed by my depression. But somehow, I made it up from that blackness. I think it was a few well placed words when I needed them from a person I actually believed cared about me. I think it was also this time that really drew the lines in the sand for me. Here are my friends; here are my acquaintances, and here are my non-friends. Anyway, I've made peace with myself, so I will no longer allow myself to be berated for that which is in the past. As with all things, time moves on, and we better get out of the way or be prepared to be crushed. Time is the great equalizer, even if it doesn't meet all of our exact deadlines and wants. Anyway, this is the end of so many things, and I've always thought this particular song by The Doors was most fitting for endings... This is the end... My only friend.... This is the end My only friend the end.... Of our elaborate plans... The End.... I'll never look into your eyes again... So here is to the beginning of my end. And the beginning of my new start.... Peace, C. |